lead in to the ode

i feel like c-rap.

i have no motivation for anything right now. my roommates are downstairs decorating our house and i have no desire to help. i suck.

today has been really hard for me. church was long and filled with responsibility that i don't feel capable of handling. i experienced some frustration when i didn't get something i really wanted today. all in all, i'm just really down.

the highlight of my day, however, was when i sent my dad a text saying, "hi dad. i love ya." and he texted back almost immediately with, "love you too hack!" (hack being the nickname he uses for all his children). thank goodness for a loving father. and thank goodness for having an old man who embraces technology *the dude even g-chats!*. anyway, it was this experience which inspires my latest ode entry.

this brief moment with my own father gives me an overwhelming sense of love that comes from our Heavenly Father. he may not always reply instantly to our proverbial text messages, but i know he is there, he knows each one of us, and always comes through.